i just want to, so i'm doing 500 calories

500 calories a day, huh?

i don't remember what my weight was on here last time,

but it's certainly up again.

i am drinking sencha, and lots of it...

honestly, i guess the only things i can do okay at are trying to do liquids.

i guess because i get so hungry, and you can have so much more of liquids.
except, this time i am counting calories. well, i am trying to, anyway.

i expect to try and keep my calories low, the first few days, but knowing myself, i might mess up the last few.

the good news is that i have made a little workout plan for myself. rather than a plan, it is just a routine, or the workout itself. since i am not running right now, i told myself i might as well do some body-weight exercises to get an allover exercise in.

so far my plan is 2 sets of the following workouts. the first half is arms, chest, back, abs, and the latter half is legs, abs.

15 sit-ups
15 push-ups
10 overhead tricep curls
20 dips

20 squats
20 lunges per leg
20 russian twists

so, i do this workout two times through, in that order.  ive done it once so far, and i was sore all over the next 2-3 days.  i did it again today for the second time, and i felt like i got through parts of it easier.  in fact, yesterday, my biceps looked much bigger than they had before.  idk about everyone else, but when i run, i get new definition fairly quickly, so i guess it makes since that my arms changed so fast. i'm not saying they are suddenly in great shape, but there was definitely a difference in how round my bicep was and the depth of the cut between it and my upper arm.  quite nice.

i think that since i adapt pretty well, after doing this workout routine 4-5 days a week for 2 or 3 weeks, i will need to up it to something stronger, by adding a 3rd set in, and/or increasing the reps.  the curls i do with a 10 lb weight. for the lunges i hold 5 lb weights in each hand.  in the russian twists, i hold a 7.5 lb weight.

i'm going on a trip in march, though i won't say where, but i want to be in shape by then.  of course i also want to be skinny and thin, but i want to get my workout routine as a habit, that way i don't look like a fake or beginner when i'm there, and so my ability is enough that i can keep up with other girls.

obviously being in shape is better than not being in shape. who wants to be a fat lard who cant do pushups? or who wants to be a skinny lard who is physically weak?

i want the thin runner body.  wear a size 0 with thin thighs, but also have some ab definition and toned arms.  i really like the tone my thighs have gotten even though i'm such an inconsistent runner (i.e. run 4 times in 2 weeks and not run at all for 3 months).  somehow, the definition still comes to me fairly quickly, as each of my running stints has given me a new tone to my thighs.

at the very least, even though my thighs are bonafide huge, at least they don't look like i'm a total fat pig. at least people will think maybe i did sports in highshool (i didn't).

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well, back to my diet, i have 2 months now and a week to get to 104 lbs. idk why that is my goal exactly. it just looks good.  i also say occasionally 94, but i think i will have to stay at 107-104 long enough that people get used to me being thin and don't get concerned, then i can drop down to 94 if i need to or want to.

i think that works.

i was supposed to run today, but i got lazy because it was later in the day.  my arms are really sore though, so that's good.

for my tea drinks, i currently own these teas:
irish breakfast
chai spice
sencha
genmaicha

well, really i own many more than that, including some herbal teas, but these are the one's i have right now that have the best flavor/ are newer that i bought.

i have had 1 cup of sencha thus far, and i think i will try to get in 4-5 cups plain of others in before the day is out.

then, for my calories, i will allow myself one cup of delicious milk black tea with sweetener or sugar.
i am going to limit myself to maybe 24 oz of this milk tea so that i don't overeat my calories.  if i gave myself 2 cups of milk, that would be 300 calories, then i'd have 200 left for sugar.

wow, actually that's a lot of milk... instead, i will probably do 1-1.5 cups of milk (150-225 cals) with <250 cals of sugar.

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i really enjoy writing out diet plans.
hope i can keep to it. idk how long for this first stint before i change the way it works. maybe 3 days? 5? more? idk.

well then,